whoa. 85?

that's a lot of posts. even though half of them are unpublished

if i unfolded a love note;

one of the four i have

in a box that is full;

one you wrote in that beautiful

language i never understood 

but read like a joke to humor you,

all the images of the long way home,

the rock at the park and the way you say

i had already won you over

when i wrote you that song, when

porcelain trees and the end of autumn

i know it sounds absolutely crazy,

but my ears would disable temporarily,

and i would lose any trace of your sweet song

within the audacity of my blocked path,

every kiss each word tries to represent

betrays the tongue i speak in,

smolders at the cinders on my lips,

i never wanted to harm you with guilt

i never wanted these stilts that i walk on

so high and far off, hold on? 

i will try, and i won't fly off, but

i find it the hardest thing i've ever done.

grace

by popular demand, i decided to do an analysis of this here song. it is entitled Grace by Sampson's Azaleas. i wrote it btw. lawl.

"satellites and shooting stars
they look the same from where we are"


we may be in two different places, but the things in the sky still look the same.


but opposite maps are drawn into our dreams
with several inches in between points "a" and "b"


...but the fact of the matter is, we're actually a fuck ton of hours apart.  we think about it, and dream about it, luckily enough, the parallel maps are drawn into our dreams, one towards me, one towards you.

the snow and the green
your heart and me


...so much so that where i am, it is snowing, and where you are it's green. and also, that's the distance between your heart and me.
these state lines melt between our eyes
despite their space and blinding exit signs


distance doesn't matter for anything.  even though we're constantly made to realize that statelines are a long ways away and the exit signs are taunting us.

the spark of grace, leaves airways in up in fire
and lines lips up like runway lights


and the spark of grace, being able to hear you or see you leaves my lungs burning, arid, dry. much like a spark is very quick and sudden, it ignites fire almost instantaneously. as quickly as it's insignificance came, you dissapeared and left me in flames. and it lines our lips up like runway lines, possibly to suggest an airline departure.

but they dim within this plight
my heart is as dark as wide


but our anger and dissapointment dim out within this unfortunate situation, because my heart is so wide, stretching all this distance between us, and it is filled with an equal amount of darkness without you.
i effortlessly pass through like a ghost
and in your heart, i feel my skin grow cold


without you, i feel like i'm just floating away, because their's nothing i can do. and i leave this mark on your heart, and without me there, i can feel your heart lose the warmth of my touch.

dust, it raises up along the road
you feet kick it up around my soul


perspective switch. ... and although it loses the warmth of your touch, dust raises up along the road you walk... your feet kick up all that we have done together up around me soul, and it makes me happy.

and the place i will not go
your arms, they are my home


perspective switch and this place that i am forced to go to, i will not have to some day, because your arms are my real home.

i hear it in your voice
when you can't even whisper goodbye


i hear this pain in your voice, when your lungs hurt so badly because you hate that word... goodbye.

with arid, aching lungs
and foreign flood land eyes


your lungs, still in pain, and you rarely cry, but it's everywhere. your tears. 

my love, you must not cry,
for my heart cannot take much more tonight


but please don't cry... the pain in separation already hurts me.
and love, be not afraid...
i am with you, i am with you
and love, do not be afraid
i am with you, i am with you

i am with you, always.


so please don't be afraid of anything, because no matter where i am, i am with you always. 

all talked out

you have a habit of indecisiveness.

i've seen it.

"shades of gray cloud every covered street .
and the rain begins to fall
in exponential quantities
swallowing the city whole."

Two Interpretations - Bon Iver's "Wisconsin" and Rogue Waves "Eyes"

So, i wanted to do both of these songs but couldn't pick one soooo, SHADAISEY!

i'll start with bon iver's wisconsin. Again, both of these songs are both beautiful and haunting, so i suggest listening to them HIGHLY.


First of all, the song Wisconsin is special because it's probably the most beautiful and retro song on "for emma, forever ago" even though you can't actually get it on the album unless you buy it from iTunes, get the torrent, and they don't perform it live. The song repeatedly uses the lines love is loves _____" and each word represents something else. This line is especially meaningful to me because of a certain given situation i have experienced. basically, i didn't believe in love fully, but because of it i understood a little more about what love was and although at this age i don't completely believe in it, i have seen a glimpse of it, and know that the emotion itself although varying is in fact very real and very personal. so, without further ado.

You ride in the park and you're peaking
Piss pools in your seat
Shes standing inside but you surely repeat
Oh God dont leave me here
I will freeze till the end
Love is loves reprieve

now, JV like i said in my pier 39 interp. uses a FUCKTON of symbolism and simile/metaphor. This song is also special because it refrains a little from that and just uses honestly and strangely revealing truths. This to me though has a little bit contained within. I think basically JV is using a typical Wisconsin winter as a comparison for a relationship ending. the first line is that the relationship is going smooth and possibly peaking at some point of remorse or anger, piss "pools" being a verb rather than a noun. Maybe he's insecure, and she's standing inside and warm and he's happy that she is, but he's begging her not to leave him in the cold he is in because he knows he will freeze. The first love is loves ____ line explains why it shows what love really is. Reprieve is of course a relief from harm or discomfort, sometimes temporary, sometimes not. But to love someone is not to give them reprieve, but to give their love reprieve, even though it will only be temporary.

Winter is coming and you're stuck here
Oh and so is she
Now when the wind blows you cover your teeth
I told you to shed away and trade in your blues
Love is loves sad news

this goes on to say that he knows that it's over and that the he's going to feel the cold pain. the second lines makes me think it's something unexpected that someone didn't know. "oh and so is she" is suggesting "oh, she is too. she knows she's going to feel the pain." and so perhaps, she is still the "wind" blowing, and so he covers his teeth because he doesn't want to hurt her. And the fourth line is just saying "i told you not to be upset, don't be like me, shed and trade in your sadness, be happy." and then, this to himself is "sad news", but it is because he loves her.

That was Wisconsin that was yesterday
Now I have nothing that I can keep
Cause every place I go I take another place with me
Love is loves mystique

and these refrains kind of show his hidden feelings. JV lived in wisconsin, so he's basically saying, that was just temporarily my home, that was the past. He now has nothing that he can keep because when you care about someone enough, everything you know and do becomes a reminder of them to you in someone, and you can't keep it because you're trying to heal. And he knows in his heart every place he goes, every person that he goes to, he's going to carry her in his heart and he won't ever feel the same comfort from anyone, described as places, like his home, (wisconsin.) And then he goes on to say, love is loves mystique, because love itself is actually the magic in love. it is a mysterious compelling feeling. but it is the core, surrounded by other feelings of joy and happiness.

Youre up on the bar and your shaking
With every grimy word
Who will love
Whats love when you've hurt
You wonder as you see the snow kissed the curb
Love is loves return

this line might get a little confusing. i think this is saying you try to find happiness in bars and dancing, in grimy filthy untrue words. Moreso, it's basically saying now you're trying to find anyone who will alleviate it. The 3rd and fourth lines trick me up, because i'm not sure if "you've hurt" is saying that you yourself have felt hurt, or you have hurt someone else. I'm not really sure, but either way, these lines to me are saying who will ever truly love that? what is "love" when you have hurt yourself so much? And then winter finally arrives painfully as the first snow "kisses the curb", so the cold pain happens, but it's not a blizzard, it's just kissing. And he bitterly says the last line which sounds to me like "if you truly love someone, you won't just let them go, you will return it to them, share it."

That was Wisconsin that was yesterday
Now I have nothing that I can keep
Cause every place I go I take another place with me
Love is loves critique

again, the same as the first refrain, but this time it is a little more confused, a little more captive, but he always go back to say "it'll never be the same." love is loves critique because if you love something, you won't destroy their love, you will critique it, you will find it perfect in someone way or another you will fix it. i'm probably terribly wrong with all this but, just my take.

MOVING ON!

i heard the song eyes on the LG vortex commercial, and the meaning hit me pretty broadside when i first read the lyrics. i actually just heard the song and looked it up for the song alone, and looked up the lyrics for yucks and kinda got bitchslapped, hahaha. anyways. This song is actually pretty beautiful and joyous, melancholy honestly. check it outttttt. i'm going to do each line in this individually. i'm interpretting the song based on the entire thing, not a single line.

Missed the last train home
i missed my last chance to save "us", to come home.
Birds pass by to tell me that I'm not alone
pun possibly intended, either saying
a) (no pun) my friends come and go like birds to tell me i'm not alone, i'll survive
b) (pun) there is someone else to comfort you, i'm not alone in your mind.
Well, I'm pushing myself to finish this part
i have maybe contemplated self harm and find it hard, but i'm determined to get through this.
I can handle a lot
i can do this, like i said. i'll be okay, i'll survive...
But one thing I'm missing is in your eyes
but i'll never be complete, i left part of me in you. i won't really be alive.

In your eyes...

Have you seen this film?
this has happened before... have you felt it?
It reminds me of walking through the avenues
i remember how i walked endlessly through a maze in the city of my mind
Washing my hands of attachments, yeah
trying to get through this and live my life, just being myself without attachments, being happy
I can land on the ground
i will survive, i will be fine. like i said, i can get through this.
But one thing I'm missing is in your eyes
but i'll never be complete, i won't ever be "alive."
'Cause I find love
i won't be complete without what i left in your eyes.

In your eyes...

wow, my interpretations suck dick today. i think i'll just leave before i embarass myself any farther xD

I wrote you another love song after having a random though pop into my head upon going through my favotire tweets.

The lyrcis are on aag. Go find it.

First two songs are on myspace.com/sampsonsazaleas. Neither are finished. Just rough listenable cuts. Both need real finished drum parts, csdms is definitely not done / too long. Anyways.

Thoughts i'd let you know if you still read....

So sleepy.

-hunter.

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Justin Vernon - Pier 39 interpretation.

i feel like taking a shot dissecting the lyrics to Justin Vernons "Pier 39". i've been listening to the song a lot lately and i've always wondered to myself what the lyrics meant. if you haven't listened, i definitely recommend it, a really beautiful song.

the title of the song "pier 39" which is a famous pier in california definitely goes along with the song. all in all, Justin Vernon is a very symbolic and metaphorical lyricist, so you have to keep in mind the vision of the pier throughout the words.

You talk about affinity
You talk about you telling me
Your habitat

it begins with narrator a conversation with a person. affinity is an unexpected attraction between people or other things, so i imagine the person is perhaps talking about what relationships she's been in or maybe how she feels about love. I read the next line a little broken so it makes more sense; "you talk about you (break) telling me your habitat." i think the narrator has possibly just met this person, and she is telling him about herself, her "habitat", the place she lives, the main parts of her life.

The harbor lights they follow me
They're tearing at our company
Can't you see?

i am still a little puzzled by this stanza. i think it's classic example of JV's symbolism; harbor lights are used to guide ships at sea towards the harbor in dense fog or storms. Harbor lights usually spin around in a light house, but he says they (not just it, to suggest more than one) "follow" him, so i think he is saying there are some things on his mind constantly trying to guide him home, or somewhere he know he has to be. he feels like these thoughts are tearing at the company between him and this person. By using the word "tearing" he is suggesting he feels a connection to this person he doesn't want to just release.

I'm cold like a carving
Cold like a wind
Bold, gentle, stubborn
Your rolling waves

i think this stanza is just a continuation of the previous line "can't you see?" i see this stanza as him saying to this person that he feels like he will hurt them, or that from past experiences he is "cold" and he's trying to say "can't you see that i have these "harbor lights" tearing at our company?" I think he used cold (the emotion) and carving (as a verb) to say that he felt like he would scar them, to say he would be quick and chilly like a wind. it's possible he is trying to warn them away? perhaps he feels guilty for knowing he is caught in a situation that is bad for him and that he'll have to get out of because of the lights "tearing at him." "Bold, gentle, and stubborn" are just the ways that he describes the beauty in this person, and that their rolling waves make it seem so easy to talk to or be around, rolling waves are usually calming and peaceful. perhaps the things he is shown in this person are telling him that this person makes him happy?

I'm baffled by your symmetry
Underneath the budded tree
Waiting on your game

this one isn't so complicated. human attraction is based upon bodily symmetry of others, so easily enough said, the narrator finds this person beautiful like he's never seen before, he's baffled by it. i think the second two lines are simply saying he sees the buds of flowers on a tree, and that he's underneath them, waiting for them to blossom. perhaps he feels like it's a game he's waiting on to play.

To send you to some other joy
I'll pick you up and write you notes
Fancy meeting you here

i'm starting to get the feeling some of these lines play off of each other. i think this might be a continuation of the "waiting on your game" line. i'll just say so and go with it. he might be saying he's waiting on her "game" to send her to some other joy. perhaps another love? maybe he's saying he's seen this before? anyways, the second line, i feel, is him saying that he will pick her up or be there for her when she is hurting, and that he'll write her notes and be her friend. Then, by some random chance, he's hoping might meet her somewhere (maybe a state of mind rather than a place?) that brings them together again, "fancy meeting you here." fancy would usually suggest a happy coincidence.

Cause you're old like the street names
Feels old like our card games
Tired as home and morning pains
I tie you up with me

another simply put stanza: i think he's saying she's someone he knows quite well like street names that have been there for him for a long time, perhaps something that directs him (in JV's symbolism). I think the second line is just saying that they found joy in simple things like card games. Finally, they are both tired and bored like home can get, and tired of morning pains (which i interpret as waking up without anything to be happy about), so he ties this person up with him, or perhaps takes a step towards being with this person again. i think that this songs stanzas may stretch over a period of time, not just one occurence.

You will somehow make me learn
That what is it inside me that
burns

this stanza might connect to the next, but i interpret this as the narrator is telling himself that "you will help me understand what this feeling inside me is, (saying burning to say) it's a pain and i don't understand, i don't want it. i don't know how you will make me learn, but you will."

A carnival inside this mind
Just a divert roadside sign
Directing you along the way

a carnival inside his mind might be saying he feels like there is a party in his head, a happiness full of fun and joy is just an unexpected detour in the other person's life, but it will end up leading them back to their way.

Feels old like your pages
I'm feeling born like your babies
I've been boarded up like cages
But I'm busting out
But I'm busting out

i don't really understand this paragraph. i think it might be another stanza continuation. He's perhaps saying "directing you along the way feels old like your pages", like he's done this "directing" with himself before, and maybe the pages represent the person's history. Feeling born like babies might make him feel as if he's brand new, like saying "all your creations, all the thoughts that come from you are newborn and beautiful, and i've been boarded up in the cage of my own mind. I feel so brand new because of you, i'm busting out."

And don't you give up on me
Don't be like me cause you love me
Don't give up on me
Don't be like me cause you love me

i am not sure at all what the storyline of this song is now, but i know it's him speaking to a girl, that's about it xD maybe he's saying he's been a prisoner of himself all along? I'm not completely sure i understand this line, but i can give personal meaning i find in it. wow, what a terrible way to finish an analysis. i think this stanza is saying either one of two things; "don't give up on me, i'm still here. just be yourself, don't be like me just because you love me." i feel like it's saying more of: "i know how much you care about me and just want to do what you feel makes me happier in the end, but please don't give up on me like i gave up on myself, i still care a lot about you."

a little skewed.

i'm probably wrong.

whatever. at least i tried. =p

"this feeling. isn't it terrifying?"

"the absolute. there is nothing i've found that i've ever been more afraid of; no monster beneath my bed, no ghosts of dead relatives, no fervent nervousness in the back of my mind; nothing."

-an old friend and i.

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