Dear someone certain,
i'm sorry how short this entry will end up being. i'm not really in the mood to write today, but i will anyways because i figure you still like reading this "from time to time." i feel really drowsy and fatigued. mehhhhhhhhhh.
so you sort of disappeared last night as you know because it was you. anyways, i feel like you deserve some sort of explanation.
i'm not sure if your a big dashboard confessional fan, but even if you were, you probably wouldn't realize what i was meaning even if i put so long twice... i felt like so long once was a bit more cryptic and relative though so... i think i'll just write the lyrics down. the first half isn't important but it's the whole chorus, so;
"how the girls can turn to ghosts before your eyes
and the very dreams that led to them
are keeping them from dying
and how the grace with which she walked into your life
will stay with you in your steps and pace with you a while
for so long; so long"
the meaning is pretty interesting to me but that's another story. Adam Duritz from Counting Crows is a guest vocalist though, so i enjoy the song. =p
if i catch you today, i catch you. i figure since you said no more emo_ness, and then left i figured those were your guiding words, so in order to avoid emo_ness, as a collaborative bargain, (even though i imagine i'll explain this when i creep on you after school) i figure that i should be around you at at least some point in the day which as it stands will probably be after school now... but anyways, i will have to be around you which will prevent any emo_ness or suicidal hintings (even though they were more of just loneliness and my own selfishness) from leaving me, because if they do, you will probably either slap me on the hand or threaten to feed me to an alligator. I know you probably suggested such a reptile would've been a pleasantry in ways to leave this place, of horruh an wrath an teeyuhs! but you know now i don't fancy them unless they're behind thick glass walls in aquariums. Speaking of which, we still must venture to the aquarium of ripley. otherwise, i don't think i'll ever go. xD
I know that you left last night and i said sweet dreams which ends it and what not, and i can understand, it's just your need for spaciousness but not letting me drift to far away if that's your grand scheme if i'm just making up parallel realities that will destroy me in my head. But I figure you're probably noticing that since ben has told me i need to tell you what we had a heart to heart about, i have to. That is, unless you don't want it. Honestly, i wasn't going to tell you. Actually, that's one of the things me and ben were actually talking about, me not telling you xD which is why it led to me needing to tell you so in a sense i'm.... yeah i just lost my train of mind so i'm going to go on to my next thought. =p ( i had said train of thought but saying thought twice twice in a sentence annoyed me. just like that. >.> damn my ocd.)
the schools security system is spazzing out today. a few minutes ago the internet went down and every single site including google of all places was blocked. i'm a little confused but i already had this window up so i'm safe.
i'm nervous about my report card... if i don't get all a's i can't keep my phone... which i desperately need in this given period in time.
I'm still pretty hyped about you hearing the song "phonetically phonetically" because it's definitely grown on me even more as one of my favorite songs. I still can't find hardly anything on the band though so i'm a little pissed butttt, i'll get over it. =p
the lyrics are actually really beautiful. I don't know them because i can't find them anywhere on the stupid internet but i might actually buy the album online just so i can read the lyrics... it might be that the album is brand new, i'm not sure, but i want to get the real lyrics before i start making up stuff. i know like three parts from this song, "phonetically, i need it sounded out phonetically" and then "if i were a figure of speech, then you would all be erased, i could've been a grave, or the gravy on thanksgiving day." and lastly "something something something you've got marbles in your mouth something something" xD so i'm pretty lame and can't pick out very many things but i try my best eh?
meh. i guess it'll be a while before we dance in the rain again if ever.
but ignore that statement. i'm being dumb. =p
I'm a little perplexed by how you possibly could've stayed up so late last night that you would end up grumbling and grunting at people when you usually go to bed in between 10 and 1. granted, only 5 hours of sleep can sometimes go from plenty to nothing but if it means anything i'm just speculating cryptically on something. xD
i can really think of what else to say... well i can't, but i can't say what i'm thinking even though i want to badly... i hope your excited about new sampsons. I know i am.
face to face some day maybe yes know over a snow cone? (sorry. randomly felt like attempting to rhyme and be lame.)
meh, i figure i'll go make a public post on how lame i am and how i hate alligators.
so long. ;D
-hunter.
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